A New Beginning

This is like nearly half a year gone by but so many things had happened since then... good memories, sad ones...it kind of make me wonder what other things are in store for us.
The arrival of a new baby brings us joy and happiness...the start of Herman job as a police officer, me having to run a centre (without the pay -.- sigh), the passing of our beloved grandfather, moving to a new house, Shadiq P1 registration plus the anxiety of him going thru P1 and now having a maid....

I believe things happen for a reason whether good or bad, happy or sad...that is life. How we face it also defines us, our character and how strong you are deep within. Do we crumble and cry under GOd's test or do we find a way out, a solution, braving it out?
Its all a matter of faith in Allah, not to question why we have to face all this but to accept it and brave through it.

Yes I do wonder why and sometimes I do question myself why...but I will realise that it is not up to me to question God's will. It is up to me to decide what I should do and to accept my fate. Coz I realise that the more I question and berate myself, the more lost and unhappy I became. Accepting does not mean defeat, accepting means the willingnes to change and look for better solutions...

Me being all melancholy and have been going through a lot of soul-searching...trying to find a deeper meaning to life and what it is all about...trying to search deep within my soul for a better understanding of what I am and what I want to be in life to myself but also most importantly to and for my family. May Allah guide me through this, Amin...

A new life...

2day is a bz day 4 me...took urgent leave to send my mom to see doctor 4 her monthly check-up n @ the same time she is sick...after that together with her we had our lunch @ swensen...came home arnd 1+...rest played pc game 4 a while...when my wife came home...we went 2 giant to shop 4 household....had dinner @ siam kitchen...later went to guardian...she bought 'the kit'...when we reach home...the test is positive...and she laugh bcoz of what she facing n feeling 4 past few days...n also thats why my appetite is increasing...so happy with isuntil cant stop smiling from just now...juz hope ALLAH will give us a healthy baby...but i really hope 4 a gal...

Majlis Kenduri Doa Selamat

Just to inform everyone that my mother-in-law, Sallehah Bt Mat Shukor, will held a Majlis Kenduri Doa Selamat as she will be going for her haj pilgrimage early November. Here are the details:

Venue: Blk 496F Tampines Ave 9
Level 4, house next to lift area
Time: 430pm onwards
Date: 6th November 2010 (Saturday)

All family members, aunties, uncles, cousins, brothers, sisters and relatives are invited for this kenduri.

Kenduri Kesyukuran dan Doa Selamat

Kepada saudara-mara, abang, kakak, makcik, pakcik, adik-beradik semua,
Harap maklum jika tiada apa halangan pada 31hb Julai 2010 (Sabtu), kami sekeluarga akan mengadakan majlis kenduri kesyukuran dan doa selamat. Untuk mengucap syukur kepada Illahi kerana Herman mendapat pekerjaan sebagai seorang pegawai polis.

kami berharap kepada semua untuk menyatakan jika anda dapat hadir untuk majlis ini. Bukan apa, nak take attendance je...pasal catering nak confirm berapa untuk datang pada hari tersebut...kalau tak leh datang takpe, tak jadi marah atau hentak-hentak kepala kat dinding. Tulus ikhlas kami menjemput semua so tak datang, its okay for us.

Latest by next wk 19th Julai (Isnin) to confirm your attendance.

Thank you, terima kasih dan adios!

(Harap maklum. Tarikh majlis kenduri kesyukuran dibrought-forwardkan pada 24hb Julai 2010 Sabtu. Masa 5petang hingga 9mlm di blk 4 Jalan Batu #02-137. Boleh hubungi kami pada talian 93887607 (odah) or 98752494 (herman) untuk keterangan lanjut...kalau nak tag kat facebook or blog pun ok jugak...)

Calling To all......

This is the 1 st time I'm blogging...after soooo many yr of having it as you guys normally know that odah is the 1 that spend time here....well from the pic you ppl should know what i'm going talk about....yup...cycling...

Its been my hobby since I met odah....she the 1 to be blame who make me crazy about it....well now I own 4 bikes and 1 coming soon...most of it is collection as they are not available in Singapore....hahaha crazy rite...spent thousands of dollars on it....

Actually I have a crazy IDEA...its to form a family cycling group among us HMS....well if ade connection yg lain nak join why not...the more the merrier....dont care what bike you own or you can rent a bike at east coast for a day or a night during our riding tour as its a two wheeler with pedals....after our bz life this 1 one the best way to release stress and a gd work out to burn thousand of tone of fats in you...this is also a family bonding session....we can organise to ride once a week or twice a week or worst to worst once a month....

So are you ppl daring enough to take dis challenge??? depend on all of you...tag and inform me if u game for it...

What is it to YOU?

its kind of sad but some people I guess are just born that way or worse they are being brought up that way....we experienced hardship from time to time, its God way of making sure we stay tough and rough. But sometimes something happen very bad and we got to make the right decision..coz a wrong decision can break others while a right decision can probably save your family...but what happens when a dream gets over you?

Everyone has dreams that they wanna fulfill...but sometimes reality sets in and you realise that its more to life than just dreams. To me my family is always placed first, whatever actions I took, the consequences can hit them hard. But some people just dont realise that...its really sad coz its just plain to see that they aint got enough sense and heart in them. You dont need people to tell you that your family is suffering because of you. You dont need years down the road to bear the shame and regret knowing that all the while you have been wrong and YOU are the cause of your family downfall. You dont need all that but unfortunately some people do travel down that road and until they hit smack into a dead-end, they will travel it blindly in the name of SACRIFICE....

its not sacrifice when you hurt the ones you love. Its not sacrifice when you hang your head down in regret later. Its not sacrifice when you know your family in hardship but you dont care. Its not sacrifice when you put yourself first before your family. Its sad and its cruel but life can be hard and unfortunately they never listen until its too late....to me its SELFISHness at its peak and its selfishness that drives people headlong towards disaster and its selfishness that will only bring shame to them...

How do you save these people? These people do not want to be saved, they listen to their friends more (some friends just wanna kill you) but never to their heart and never to their family. These people even when they hit rockbottom will never admit defeat but blame others for their wrongs. They dont care what others say about them, its just mere wind to their ears. I have no respect for these people, only disgust cause after all that is said and done, in the end its their family who suffer the most.....

Sleepless Night

tried to sleep but cant...kept tossing and turning in bed...regardless of the noize Siddiq makes when he sleeps.....

im so troubled by thoughts...why? Cause I hate taking risks. Risks that I know will hit me hard someday and risks that can bring jeopardy. Especially if the risk taken is not of my choosing. It only implicates me and the consequences are very dire...

unfortunately people dont realise that. They do it in the name of good and helping others. But at the risk of jeopardising ur own is something not so heroic...if it backfires, it will only bring disastrous results....

how to sleep when the mind wanders about all this? people dont understand, they say I think too much, worry too much. this is not about me....this is about taking a risk that implicates me without my choosing and I dont like that at all.